| As usuall.. im gonna post something not really positive here again.... every of my post i realize that nothing r sharing happy to others... Man.. today i feel weird... being jobless for 2 month di... nothing really can cheer me up. In this 2 month time, i go shopping lah, go watch movie lah, go clubbing lah do watever things that i cant do during working time... Im really lost many happy time while working, staying in office whole week without goin back home. Why? why would i dare to lose so much last time??? Is it worth it? I dunno, outsiders call our company as hardcore hell.. doing without caring bout time.. So, im 1 of the hardcore inside. Aiyah... dont talk work di lah.. im really workholic man.. other then work really dunno wat else can do di... Oh yah, recently i went to gym, thinking to build up muscle n cut off my lemak. Im not really fat lah... but the body shape looks dont nice loh... so have to work on it hard, then see my result in short time.. I havent really plan for my future, im already 24 now, really dunno wat to do in future. I cant sta in 3D industry in rest of my life, caz it cant earn more. The highest pay onli go to 10k onli... just for very very very outstanding ppl... for normal it onli goin to be 7k plus onli lah... Wat do i really wanan to do in future?? maybe some busniess or erm.... dunno... 3D industry really diffrent then others, it cant really earn money... is the 1st point, n then it not really a busniess... its a service. Ppl pay thn get our service then walk of happily... buthen we do untill die they also dunno, just make black faces n ask us to change this n add more on that... So, thats y i call it not a busniess. Maybe will do some T-shirt design n sell it off qua, buthen have to plann. Its not a 1 person work, it have to involve many ppl, such as designer lah, marketing lah n marketing consultant as well.... I plan be4 long time ago, to create a logo or character for my T-shirt... buthen cant really figure out wat i really wann for design... i keep on research reserch n research, really got nothing to myself. I have a really simple marketing planning on T-shirt selling, buthen dunno its really work anot.... Somore i dont really dare to start all it now... caz the most important thing 'money' not enough. Cant think where to sell n how to get link or connection to other store... have to replan seriously.... Dont wanna to get back old working life di, very scare of it. So start a small busniess will be ok i think buthen have to wait after a year 1st.... not so soon. Ok well... it been a wonderful time with u guys here, i will appreciate it all.. thanks for ur kindness been sitting here watching me bullshiting... Thnks .. haha |
Monday, September 8, 2008
Ready, Get set.... RUN!!!!!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
can u draw out a beautiful rainbow?
Hey.... theres many things happend i this couple of week... dont u realize that i getting slim n un happy? Happy smiling faces r getting away from me... i can't even smile happily like old times having fun with some of my best friend.
I even getting far n far with them n getting less n less chating topic with them. i realize sometimes i come out yam cha with them i also get less to talk. Just starring at my drink n suck the straw onli. If no or suck ciggy every 3 mins or 5 mins whn getting silence... No is not im getting silence in any purpose... is im really cant to get to know what they talking about... after not really get involve in thier acivities.. yah for true. im getting away from my buddies... i also dunno why, tell u wat... i feel like im getting to change to other person n having diffrent characteristic... WAT THE FUK!!! im getting silence n scare to give opinion whn dicussing on a topic that use to be fun in amoung of us... I hate myself for now, i lose many things... many many things...
Somelike something is controling my life... just like an adult taking away lollipops from a kid... Im upset n letting many ppl upset on me.. i have make my exboss dissapoint on my childish mind n letting many collegue n friend dissapoint on me... n i also let myself leaving black named in lots of ppl... i damn damn hate myself ... i wish the time could back to where i find true happiness n wat we call friendship ard...
After 2 years in a company that u work very hard n having great times on, n then they all turn back on u... n then u walk on a wrong way that cant turn ard n go back n tell them how u feel sorry to them n ask for help... u cant!!! u cant.. i telling myself i cant ... theres no turning back di... i already walk on dead end of myself... friends n colluge that used to work realy hard together.. the partner that we rush trought many endless jobs...
2 years... from a foolish young buddy to fly high n then drop to an end now... many i get experience from them n then also lost many to them also... the day we drunk.. the day we laugh the day we overnite together n then the day we argue with some little problem for letting the job goin prefectly... the we smoke together also the day we cry for some stupid reason... n we get lost n heading on diffrent way... i tot collegue can be friends someore is closest caz we fight together n feel the victory together.. but till the end i walk on myself then i realize im wrong... theres nothing is forever in ur life except ur dear family...
I been given up before from them, getting uncontrolable infront of bosses, getting crazy n getting my head of... i miss the day we get to know each other whn the really fresh flystudio begin... now the memory showing in my mind i dunno wat to do already... Now i getting ready to new company n then theres no other chances we can get be together di... someore i dunno say... i lost di...
So long guys... my best flystudio soilders, tell u guys wat... accuatlly.. i didnt get prepared to leave u guys in then sense of working.. is just i done alot of stupidness n get myself shame infront of u guys... till i cant be there with u all working. U all r a team... remember that, someone will be messing u guys ard buthen u all have to get together n find out who r doing bastard things ard...
To my boss.... u r a lovely boss n a good till best boss.... i belive that no one outside will get better then u... is i owe u too much n then i can get n e better from u n i feel like i cant contribute more better for u n the company di... now i have to say sorry of all i done that make u feel dissapointed n things getting too sudden...
Kim, the onli person that i mention name in here from flystudio, i owe u alot... i know u alwaz know wat the hell im up to... i know u try to figure out wat im upset on sometimes... u r a best man from all the ppl i know. The producer that we work on happily, hope u will get happy everyday like i alwaz see u laugh n smile in the studio... u r the person in flystudio i get to know.. u try very hard to work with us... alwaz letting us to work in the bst condition.. im really owe u alot... thank u alot...
Im often telling u guys wat happen on me... accuatlly... im an emotioned person.. letting emotion showing the way of the day is terrible.. like me.. if facing something i dont like... i will straightly put it up on my face... it is bad.. i know... it will cause other ppl unhappy... like at last im causing myself getting away from u guys.. sometimes i treat u guys nice is not i wanan something from u all, is i wanna to see u guys getting happy n less worries.. buthen it cause me get angry that someone planning something that didnt ask me along or join too... thats im upset on...
Thats too many things happend between us.. happy sad anger... just wish u guys getting happier n stronger, i will be better n better n will get the memory that having u guys in my little mind... theres a space in my mind that have Meng, Kim, Eve, CK, Pang, Weiliat, Xiang, Kenny, Jin Wei, Yong Xiong, Liaw... we use to be a team... n alwaz will..
God bless u guys, bye
I even getting far n far with them n getting less n less chating topic with them. i realize sometimes i come out yam cha with them i also get less to talk. Just starring at my drink n suck the straw onli. If no or suck ciggy every 3 mins or 5 mins whn getting silence... No is not im getting silence in any purpose... is im really cant to get to know what they talking about... after not really get involve in thier acivities.. yah for true. im getting away from my buddies... i also dunno why, tell u wat... i feel like im getting to change to other person n having diffrent characteristic... WAT THE FUK!!! im getting silence n scare to give opinion whn dicussing on a topic that use to be fun in amoung of us... I hate myself for now, i lose many things... many many things...
Somelike something is controling my life... just like an adult taking away lollipops from a kid... Im upset n letting many ppl upset on me.. i have make my exboss dissapoint on my childish mind n letting many collegue n friend dissapoint on me... n i also let myself leaving black named in lots of ppl... i damn damn hate myself ... i wish the time could back to where i find true happiness n wat we call friendship ard...
After 2 years in a company that u work very hard n having great times on, n then they all turn back on u... n then u walk on a wrong way that cant turn ard n go back n tell them how u feel sorry to them n ask for help... u cant!!! u cant.. i telling myself i cant ... theres no turning back di... i already walk on dead end of myself... friends n colluge that used to work realy hard together.. the partner that we rush trought many endless jobs...
2 years... from a foolish young buddy to fly high n then drop to an end now... many i get experience from them n then also lost many to them also... the day we drunk.. the day we laugh the day we overnite together n then the day we argue with some little problem for letting the job goin prefectly... the we smoke together also the day we cry for some stupid reason... n we get lost n heading on diffrent way... i tot collegue can be friends someore is closest caz we fight together n feel the victory together.. but till the end i walk on myself then i realize im wrong... theres nothing is forever in ur life except ur dear family...
I been given up before from them, getting uncontrolable infront of bosses, getting crazy n getting my head of... i miss the day we get to know each other whn the really fresh flystudio begin... now the memory showing in my mind i dunno wat to do already... Now i getting ready to new company n then theres no other chances we can get be together di... someore i dunno say... i lost di...
So long guys... my best flystudio soilders, tell u guys wat... accuatlly.. i didnt get prepared to leave u guys in then sense of working.. is just i done alot of stupidness n get myself shame infront of u guys... till i cant be there with u all working. U all r a team... remember that, someone will be messing u guys ard buthen u all have to get together n find out who r doing bastard things ard...
To my boss.... u r a lovely boss n a good till best boss.... i belive that no one outside will get better then u... is i owe u too much n then i can get n e better from u n i feel like i cant contribute more better for u n the company di... now i have to say sorry of all i done that make u feel dissapointed n things getting too sudden...
Kim, the onli person that i mention name in here from flystudio, i owe u alot... i know u alwaz know wat the hell im up to... i know u try to figure out wat im upset on sometimes... u r a best man from all the ppl i know. The producer that we work on happily, hope u will get happy everyday like i alwaz see u laugh n smile in the studio... u r the person in flystudio i get to know.. u try very hard to work with us... alwaz letting us to work in the bst condition.. im really owe u alot... thank u alot...
Im often telling u guys wat happen on me... accuatlly... im an emotioned person.. letting emotion showing the way of the day is terrible.. like me.. if facing something i dont like... i will straightly put it up on my face... it is bad.. i know... it will cause other ppl unhappy... like at last im causing myself getting away from u guys.. sometimes i treat u guys nice is not i wanan something from u all, is i wanna to see u guys getting happy n less worries.. buthen it cause me get angry that someone planning something that didnt ask me along or join too... thats im upset on...
Thats too many things happend between us.. happy sad anger... just wish u guys getting happier n stronger, i will be better n better n will get the memory that having u guys in my little mind... theres a space in my mind that have Meng, Kim, Eve, CK, Pang, Weiliat, Xiang, Kenny, Jin Wei, Yong Xiong, Liaw... we use to be a team... n alwaz will..
God bless u guys, bye
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Nervous
9.01pm
Still at office... doing final animation. After a few weeks, i will left here, think back the time i used to be here. Laughing, playing, hardworking, sleeping, joking and many more. I told myself before, this is the place i want, this will be my last destination. After all those things happened, everything changed. Ppl argue, leaving, black faces and many more. Im just goin up for a training on modeling and texturing. My Boss tought that im goin up for hiding the stress behind. Honestly, is not like that... i understand that every working place also have stress, im not hiding someone or something, is i wanan to change a better environment and learn something that might be useful for me. Thats wat i think so.
For future, for a better lifestyle, i have to put more afford on wat am i doing now. Just half of year, i will be back soon.. with something new .... GO!!!!!!
Still at office... doing final animation. After a few weeks, i will left here, think back the time i used to be here. Laughing, playing, hardworking, sleeping, joking and many more. I told myself before, this is the place i want, this will be my last destination. After all those things happened, everything changed. Ppl argue, leaving, black faces and many more. Im just goin up for a training on modeling and texturing. My Boss tought that im goin up for hiding the stress behind. Honestly, is not like that... i understand that every working place also have stress, im not hiding someone or something, is i wanan to change a better environment and learn something that might be useful for me. Thats wat i think so.
For future, for a better lifestyle, i have to put more afford on wat am i doing now. Just half of year, i will be back soon.. with something new .... GO!!!!!!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Am i still belong here??
5.20pm
my mind is blank... damn blank.. looking ppl walking n talking ard me, they r not walking towards me n not talking with me. Im stay alone quietly with no one... Am i still belong here? Looks like im invisible like that.. Eventhough ppl who know about me, keeping away from me. Im upset... feel like wanna cry.. feel like wanna left here, feel like wanan run away as hard as i can. Every smile is not for me, every conversation made behind of me.
Should i staying here ?? i keep on and keep on asking myself... ppl leaving me, leaving me alone. Im all alone, im all alone here. Plz help me.. answer me, should i still staying here or i should go. Go to somewhere which less ppl know about me... so that i can start it all over again. Help me plz..
my mind is blank... damn blank.. looking ppl walking n talking ard me, they r not walking towards me n not talking with me. Im stay alone quietly with no one... Am i still belong here? Looks like im invisible like that.. Eventhough ppl who know about me, keeping away from me. Im upset... feel like wanna cry.. feel like wanna left here, feel like wanan run away as hard as i can. Every smile is not for me, every conversation made behind of me.
Should i staying here ?? i keep on and keep on asking myself... ppl leaving me, leaving me alone. Im all alone, im all alone here. Plz help me.. answer me, should i still staying here or i should go. Go to somewhere which less ppl know about me... so that i can start it all over again. Help me plz..
Monday, April 28, 2008
Relax~~
1.12am Finally im at home.. writing something, i a very relax mood... Eventhough at home, buthen dunno y.. feeling like somekindda emptiness. Im starting become quiet at office.... keep on and keep on working silencily.At last, my boss letting me goin up to igloo for a few months to have some training, buthen from his talking, i feel like he is leting me to relax n scare me too stress in commercial onli letting me goin up to have a rest. AArrrgggHHHH!!!! i wanan write on blog buthen im watching TV lah.... Damn... i ahve alot to say here... eventhough no one wanan read my bullshiting... dont care lah.. let me finsih da series 1st then onli continue.... GOGOGOGOGO!!!! |
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Still the same
3.40am
Im still at office.. very tired... but this song giving me motivation to stay awake n work... here the song that i really love it... dont know y.. is kindda soft and.. all bout feeling..
我不需要Tiffany.. the song i mention bout...
i think i need a rest 1st... so.. chaoz... SLEEP!!!!!
Im still at office.. very tired... but this song giving me motivation to stay awake n work... here the song that i really love it... dont know y.. is kindda soft and.. all bout feeling..
我不需要Tiffany.. the song i mention bout...
i think i need a rest 1st... so.. chaoz... SLEEP!!!!!
Go Go Go
2.41am
I've finish 1 more shot blocking... not i wanna be fast.. is just i have to finish all these as soon as possible. Caz theres something that i dont really wanan in this animation anymore. Have to leave the love 1 ( animation ) is kindda hard. Not i wanan left 3D industry lah.. caz 3D have many section mah.. Animation, Lighting, Technical, Modeling and etc.... 3D kia will know wat i talking about lah... buthen outsides may not really understand... My working is kindda complicated 1..
If i finish these animation fast i will have a good holiday n can do something diffrent.. maybe is not wat i wan.. but at least i go try for it... Hope i wont be wrong on this time for choosing other then animation..
Continue.. i wanan shoot down at least 4 shot blocking by today.. i mean before around 6am... God bless.. YAAAHHhhhAAAAA!!!!!!! DO WORK!!!!!
I've finish 1 more shot blocking... not i wanna be fast.. is just i have to finish all these as soon as possible. Caz theres something that i dont really wanan in this animation anymore. Have to leave the love 1 ( animation ) is kindda hard. Not i wanan left 3D industry lah.. caz 3D have many section mah.. Animation, Lighting, Technical, Modeling and etc.... 3D kia will know wat i talking about lah... buthen outsides may not really understand... My working is kindda complicated 1..
If i finish these animation fast i will have a good holiday n can do something diffrent.. maybe is not wat i wan.. but at least i go try for it... Hope i wont be wrong on this time for choosing other then animation..
Continue.. i wanan shoot down at least 4 shot blocking by today.. i mean before around 6am... God bless.. YAAAHHhhhAAAAA!!!!!!! DO WORK!!!!!
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