5.57am
My eyes damn pain lah wei.... My eyes damn tired... no use screammming and yelling here... my jobs still havent done. Still have 1/4 to go, but im tired n sleepy di. Oh... nearly forgot... my barstard friend who backstabing me behind, i had a small chit chating with boss about da backstabing stuff.. n at 1st im asking for a move to Igloo ( which the game studio were closest connection with my company). Means that im goin there to cold down and work for few month there, which they think will gain some exprience. So that i can get away from this problem and have a good rest. Buthen my boss refuse to letting me to go there this early... he say i cant run away from problem like this... i have to face it.. yet i still have a job in here which have to partner with that bastard. I begging n begging to my boss to letting me switch earliar for not partnering with him. But i failed... still have to do da last job for some reason. Then no choice...
At last, i screw that bastard with da history which he chating with my friend on backstabing me. He act like wat he do is good for me and dont regret or feel sorry at all... keep on saying that if the time was right he will tell me, so u can backstab me for sure than telling me face to face is it ?? Haiz... things happen. kindda happy that i found out i have this kindda maggots behind me who acting friend but talking shit behind u... someore with some NIA MA words... unbeliveable whn i reading da history my friend left to me... is like is impossible he is da one who tlaking shit on me... the one who alwaz say ' friend mah... we r buddy, i know u u know me' ... man.. think back also feeling like gay...
So, thats no more mr nice guy at office di... have to be more n more sing mok while doing stuff n acting di, building up wall n defense from everyone. For u own good sake, dont ever trust a single person who smiling at u without a purpose... Smiling but carring a knife 1 ahhh tell u ... alrite.. head back to works..
NO~~~ Ciggy break 1st... DUNHILLLLL MUTU KEUNGULAN!!! Chaaaaoooozzzzz.....
Showing posts with label Friendship. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Friendship. Show all posts
Friday, April 25, 2008
Betray hurts alot
10.16pm
As usual im still at office... doing something that wont be able to finish. Im happy with wat am i doing now, at least i have some good profile job on my hand and then i can proudily to say IS MY JOB... I DONE IT MYSELF!!!!! Sometimes u r not fighting alone... friends or college help u alot. But beware theres someone who looking behind u, watching u carefully, learn ur goodness n fillter ur badness. Being a good guy for me r very damn eazy, i can be good to anyone else... Someone treat me nice i will treat them double nicer then they treated me. I appreaciate everyone who helped me alot, try to be kind n try to not compliant alot infront of them, but some of them r very da CLOSED friend... i will share my deep inside with them, n i aspect them know me well too. But im wrong, everything that i done for so called FRIENDS r wrong...
Do i have to reconsider about wat is Friendship? is it friendship is about give n take onli??? How much u gave me then i have to pay back da amount u given to me?? Or sometimes am i have to hide my true attidute personality n faces them with fake faces or something that they like?? Do i have to act like perfect so that i can earn a true hearted friends??
Im eduactated to be nice to ppl whn i was young, mom used to tell me that rather ppl who hurt us then we hurt other ppl... Should i wear a iron mask or something protaction whn they make jokes on me... then i have to laugh with them while da damage they still leave on da joke they give it to me... sometimes its get me very da piss off.. Am i really useless to u guys?? Or are u all very perfect that dont have any mistake or bad habit at all that u can point mistakes on other n make a damn fuking jokes on ppl??
I know.. im wrong from the very begining... i shouldnt left them joking on me, i should guard myself well, i shouldnt laugh after someone talk badly on me... even have to argue with them badly to protact myself... my honour..
After i knew everything that someone talk badly behind me, no.... is backstab me. Now i learned a lesson... dont even treat other ppl nice other then family.. Have to fight back on everything that will caz me to dead... This world other then family... u cant trust anyone well.. u have to trust urself outside n love urself inside... whn no one r standing beside u.. all u have is ur own.
So i have to make some desicion well tonite.. to get all things clear n have a long vication to let my body and soul release n come back with energy. I shouldnt belief in anyone else now... i have to stay strong so that i dont need anyone else.
As usual im still at office... doing something that wont be able to finish. Im happy with wat am i doing now, at least i have some good profile job on my hand and then i can proudily to say IS MY JOB... I DONE IT MYSELF!!!!! Sometimes u r not fighting alone... friends or college help u alot. But beware theres someone who looking behind u, watching u carefully, learn ur goodness n fillter ur badness. Being a good guy for me r very damn eazy, i can be good to anyone else... Someone treat me nice i will treat them double nicer then they treated me. I appreaciate everyone who helped me alot, try to be kind n try to not compliant alot infront of them, but some of them r very da CLOSED friend... i will share my deep inside with them, n i aspect them know me well too. But im wrong, everything that i done for so called FRIENDS r wrong...
Do i have to reconsider about wat is Friendship? is it friendship is about give n take onli??? How much u gave me then i have to pay back da amount u given to me?? Or sometimes am i have to hide my true attidute personality n faces them with fake faces or something that they like?? Do i have to act like perfect so that i can earn a true hearted friends??
Im eduactated to be nice to ppl whn i was young, mom used to tell me that rather ppl who hurt us then we hurt other ppl... Should i wear a iron mask or something protaction whn they make jokes on me... then i have to laugh with them while da damage they still leave on da joke they give it to me... sometimes its get me very da piss off.. Am i really useless to u guys?? Or are u all very perfect that dont have any mistake or bad habit at all that u can point mistakes on other n make a damn fuking jokes on ppl??
I know.. im wrong from the very begining... i shouldnt left them joking on me, i should guard myself well, i shouldnt laugh after someone talk badly on me... even have to argue with them badly to protact myself... my honour..
After i knew everything that someone talk badly behind me, no.... is backstab me. Now i learned a lesson... dont even treat other ppl nice other then family.. Have to fight back on everything that will caz me to dead... This world other then family... u cant trust anyone well.. u have to trust urself outside n love urself inside... whn no one r standing beside u.. all u have is ur own.
So i have to make some desicion well tonite.. to get all things clear n have a long vication to let my body and soul release n come back with energy. I shouldnt belief in anyone else now... i have to stay strong so that i dont need anyone else.
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