Mc day

Now is 3 in the morning, i still havent sleep yet. I wake up at ard 11 something nite, n then have my so called dinner ard 2 something by order Mc delivery. My god i been eating Mc from 2 days di... Today really.. i spend almost time on bed sleeping... wat makes me feel tired?? dont really know..?? maybe my sleeping time is turned ard di qua... damn it i sleep too much di lah.. cannot lah.. have to find soemthing to do di... Sunday... man.. i dont have plan.. think will staying at home watch movie qua... having an interview next monday... wish me luck... Plus bday is coming on 8 days time.. dont worry i will keep on remind u... hahaha Supper + dinner = MC!!!!

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coming near

my bday is ard di.... 10 days counting... dunno wil be a happy 1 or still da normal day? feel moody today.. how can u feel happy whn things not goin well each days? think alot, worries that continue coming... too many uncomfirm.. never been happy then ever like last time di... everything change... i have to understand it.. i have to make myself clear with wat i have now.. i have to do many things that forget bout the mistake i have made... nothing is making me cool.. nothing making me happy... nothing making me smile.. nothing making me pround n nothing making me dare to do... I dont wanan to be unhappy anymore.. i dont wanan to make any decisions anymore... i dont wanan to make ppl worry bout me anymore.. i wanan to be tough i wanan to be strong n i wanna to be pround of myself start from now... but can i?? So... smile at me n say everything will be alrite.. nothing will bring u down.. n nothing will bring u away... give me a hand n let me hold it while im sad n down... be the angel that will kick my ass n ask me to work harder... hahaha for life.. cheers everyone that care bout me... i owe u..

Ready, Get set.... RUN!!!!!

As usuall.. im gonna post something not really positive here again.... every of my post i realize that nothing r sharing happy to others... Man.. today i feel weird... being jobless for 2 month di... nothing really can cheer me up. In this 2 month time, i go shopping lah, go watch movie lah, go clubbing lah do watever things that i cant do during working time... Im really lost many happy time while working, staying in office whole week without goin back home. Why? why would i dare to lose so much last time??? Is it worth it? I dunno, outsiders call our company as hardcore hell.. doing without caring bout time.. So, im 1 of the hardcore inside. Aiyah... dont talk work di lah.. im really workholic man.. other then work really dunno wat else can do di... Oh yah, recently i went to gym, thinking to build up muscle n cut off my lemak. Im not really fat lah... but the body shape looks dont nice loh... so have to work on it hard, then see my result in short time.. I havent really plan for my future, im already 24 now, really dunno wat to do in future. I cant sta in 3D industry in rest of my life, caz it cant earn more. The highest pay onli go to 10k onli... just for very very very outstanding ppl... for normal it onli goin to be 7k plus onli lah... Wat do i really wanan to do in future?? maybe some busniess or erm.... dunno... 3D industry really diffrent then others, it cant really earn money... is the 1st point, n then it not really a busniess... its a service. Ppl pay thn get our service then walk of happily... buthen we do untill die they also dunno, just make black faces n ask us to change this n add more on that... So, thats y i call it not a busniess. Maybe will do some T-shirt design n sell it off qua, buthen have to plann. Its not a 1 person work, it have to involve many ppl, such as designer lah, marketing lah n marketing consultant as well.... I plan be4 long time ago, to create a logo or character for my T-shirt... buthen cant really figure out wat i really wann for design... i keep on research reserch n research, really got nothing to myself. I have a really simple marketing planning on T-shirt selling, buthen dunno its really work anot.... Somore i dont really dare to start all it now... caz the most important thing 'money' not enough. Cant think where to sell n how to get link or connection to other store... have to replan seriously.... Dont wanna to get back old working life di, very scare of it. So start a small busniess will be ok i think buthen have to wait after a year 1st.... not so soon. Ok well... it been a wonderful time with u guys here, i will appreciate it all.. thanks for ur kindness been sitting here watching me bullshiting... Thnks .. haha