将军和士兵。。

将军，是个策划攻守，激将鼓士，一人之下;万人之上，的一个勇士。
士兵，是将军战胜敌对的十万之一棋子。
一个将军，孤奋策略；十万士兵，镇守城池。
问君，胜利负败，是将军之功；还是士兵之劳？
问君，会否身受重任，带着万众期望；凯旋而归或视死如归。还是，量力而为，为家院并肩作战，功左守右；冲前防后。

后，另为一人挂帅，还为万人勇战？伤脑困扰是也，何不笑遥自在，醉生梦死，平凡为人；而要争功夺名，为十人之上呢？

perfect

half a year gone... Left another half a year to let enjoy the year of 2009.. Considering wat should or shouldnt i do... things happened ard, no matter wat still ha e to settle it... Thats y we born as human, to fix things up... Isnt it??

I have CHANGED!!!!

i started to like someone i used to be HATE in few years ago.... Started to browse thru his folio, and started to realize his good n awesome artwork... Few years ago, caz of some missunderstand and jealous make me hate him deep in my heart. Now i realize im just a little bug compare to a perfect person like him... Good looking, good attidute, bravo skill of drawing and many many thing.. I used to tell other ppl about how hate im to him, but never realize he is god.. in every drawing artist heart.. some copying his style of drawing, some appreciate his art work...
Damn i have lose to someone perfect... but start to like him... damn it... i start to collect his stuff his artwork even browse into his website and then read his blog... fuker i hate him as knowing him so late... he is the man.. a true man.. U are right, im wrong.. he is a perfect person for u all..
Im just jealous on him by being a better person than me for u ... god bless to the person im mention and i used to be hate!!

HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!

I found a job di eventually... but i dont really like it... its a game company, everytime i wake up i feel like wanan running away from there. It is at KL sentral, 1 of the biggest game company, im very pround of i was shortlisted. Whn the day i start work. Damn it using another software is not a good idea for me. I cant make friends inside, my working on game r slow n someore i dont even think that i wil stay there for more then 8 hours... all i wan is just goin back n CRY.. i started feel like to cry!!!! The first time i work till wanna cry is so unbelievable. So i decide to go back my old company, buthen with the market r damn fuking low now, they dont have that budget to offer me back. I been heard alots of " we are not hiring 3D animator by now " this kindda JOKES.... I hate everythings now, i dont even go for lunch caz i wanan to finish stuff fast then i can go back home, i dont really think to stay there.... Can i go back now?? I hate my life for now...!!!!! for now!!!!! NOW!!!! FOR HOPELESS N JOBLESS!!!!!!!!!

23years human life time...

一路走过安分的23岁。 一直行走在已经为我建好的铁路。 我就好像火车般，从来都没越轨。 在安稳的轨道上； 我遇见好多好多各型种类的怪兽。 原来，我和怪兽那么的有冤； 常咬着我不放。 那。。。 总是微笑的石头怪； 邪邪的黑面瘦猴； 白里透红，自大的花仙； 暴力血腥的猩猩； 情绪常不稳定的长竹仙； 圆圆，牙里闪闪亮亮的熊猫； 怎样都吃不肥的怪物； 好多好多。。。。 一直想要疯狂的行驶自己的脑袋； 可惜永远都被现势克制着。 自以为的巨人，常常出现在我烦恼的时候； 把我压的透不过气来。 为什么，通常在面临崩溃的悬崖； 总会出现不想看见的脸。 不想被误会的我； 常常就会被抹黑。 23的回忆，会永远的烙在脑海中吗？ 会渐渐消失？还是会有另外的续集？ 我会打赢并消失掉那群怪兽吗？ 24的我，越了轨，离开了那些怪兽。 越轨的两个月，静静的感受我拚了两年命所剩下的气息。 微弱，我所感受到的； 我想，恢复元气；毁掉怨气，真的需要一段时间和空间。 慢慢的，我相信，忘记一切； 是迎接新的季节的开始。

Mc day

Now is 3 in the morning, i still havent sleep yet. I wake up at ard 11 something nite, n then have my so called dinner ard 2 something by order Mc delivery. My god i been eating Mc from 2 days di... Today really.. i spend almost time on bed sleeping... wat makes me feel tired?? dont really know..?? maybe my sleeping time is turned ard di qua... damn it i sleep too much di lah.. cannot lah.. have to find soemthing to do di... Sunday... man.. i dont have plan.. think will staying at home watch movie qua... having an interview next monday... wish me luck... Plus bday is coming on 8 days time.. dont worry i will keep on remind u... hahaha Supper + dinner = MC!!!!

ms

coming near

my bday is ard di.... 10 days counting... dunno wil be a happy 1 or still da normal day? feel moody today.. how can u feel happy whn things not goin well each days? think alot, worries that continue coming... too many uncomfirm.. never been happy then ever like last time di... everything change... i have to understand it.. i have to make myself clear with wat i have now.. i have to do many things that forget bout the mistake i have made... nothing is making me cool.. nothing making me happy... nothing making me smile.. nothing making me pround n nothing making me dare to do... I dont wanan to be unhappy anymore.. i dont wanan to make any decisions anymore... i dont wanan to make ppl worry bout me anymore.. i wanan to be tough i wanan to be strong n i wanna to be pround of myself start from now... but can i?? So... smile at me n say everything will be alrite.. nothing will bring u down.. n nothing will bring u away... give me a hand n let me hold it while im sad n down... be the angel that will kick my ass n ask me to work harder... hahaha for life.. cheers everyone that care bout me... i owe u..