HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!

I found a job di eventually... but i dont really like it... its a game company, everytime i wake up i feel like wanan running away from there. It is at KL sentral, 1 of the biggest game company, im very pround of i was shortlisted. Whn the day i start work. Damn it using another software is not a good idea for me. I cant make friends inside, my working on game r slow n someore i dont even think that i wil stay there for more then 8 hours... all i wan is just goin back n CRY.. i started feel like to cry!!!! The first time i work till wanna cry is so unbelievable. So i decide to go back my old company, buthen with the market r damn fuking low now, they dont have that budget to offer me back. I been heard alots of " we are not hiring 3D animator by now " this kindda JOKES.... I hate everythings now, i dont even go for lunch caz i wanan to finish stuff fast then i can go back home, i dont really think to stay there.... Can i go back now?? I hate my life for now...!!!!! for now!!!!! NOW!!!! FOR HOPELESS N JOBLESS!!!!!!!!!

23years human life time...

一路走过安分的23岁。 一直行走在已经为我建好的铁路。 我就好像火车般，从来都没越轨。 在安稳的轨道上； 我遇见好多好多各型种类的怪兽。 原来，我和怪兽那么的有冤； 常咬着我不放。 那。。。 总是微笑的石头怪； 邪邪的黑面瘦猴； 白里透红，自大的花仙； 暴力血腥的猩猩； 情绪常不稳定的长竹仙； 圆圆，牙里闪闪亮亮的熊猫； 怎样都吃不肥的怪物； 好多好多。。。。 一直想要疯狂的行驶自己的脑袋； 可惜永远都被现势克制着。 自以为的巨人，常常出现在我烦恼的时候； 把我压的透不过气来。 为什么，通常在面临崩溃的悬崖； 总会出现不想看见的脸。 不想被误会的我； 常常就会被抹黑。 23的回忆，会永远的烙在脑海中吗？ 会渐渐消失？还是会有另外的续集？ 我会打赢并消失掉那群怪兽吗？ 24的我，越了轨，离开了那些怪兽。 越轨的两个月，静静的感受我拚了两年命所剩下的气息。 微弱，我所感受到的； 我想，恢复元气；毁掉怨气，真的需要一段时间和空间。 慢慢的，我相信，忘记一切； 是迎接新的季节的开始。