Stress n release Stress

6.50am

Ciggrates r my best friend while im working on da time like this at my office. Eventhought i know its bad, but i just cant stop it, some like small kid needs candy much. Its spoil ur teeth buthen u still desprite having it...
i been a smoker 4 years ago... It just a entertainment for me whn hanging out with friends, yamcha, clubbing etc. After i started work... it been like even more n more i need it... whn im stress, whn i been rushed n pushed for max, n overniting.
whn this kindda life will end??? i dotn wanna to overnite i dont wanan rush things anymore... I just wanan a simple life with dinner at home or watching DVD before goin to sleep... I been keep on working liek this almost for 2 year.... As a CG artist (CG stand fo Computer Graphic, other ppl named it as 3D, like those fimiliar brand such as Pixar, Dreamworks, blah blah blah) Eiiiii... we r not cool...as u can see me doing endless job here till a whole nite, from a healthy life to erm.... Zoombie movement...
Becaz of these job.... wrong desicion i made while im in college.... i tot it will be fun whn i fresh join this industry. But thats true, whn ppl tell u ' dream cant earn u money to feed'... i have to listen n stick it on ur brain... Im da worst example that shows.... im using my dream to earning me money but end up with nothing i gain.. im not driving big cars n owning big houses with this job... n i will never get all that while im holding this position...
Its not eazy to produce a 3D commercial or movies... its take many times and man power. Plz do really have a look n appreciates watever 3D that show in ur TV screen... u can see blood n tears inside... for making a great commercial... Endless feedback... Endless oevernite n Endless works... that a CG artist life...
AAARRRRRHHHHH, thats useless eventhought u complain that much... still ahve 10 - 20 years to go... is it wat i wan?? just too jealous who r still studying n having fun while im panicing on jobs....
so... back to work... BOOOOSSSSTTTT UUUPPPP!!!!!! Ciggy break 1st... Chaoz~ OOI... MY DUNHILL LEH??? GIVE ME BACK!!!!